Lighter Shade of Blue

Reality Writes a Fiction of Life

Memories of a Lunar Demon: Orion

Painful isn’t it ?

Picking up the pieces of a broken life, each shard cut the fragile finger revives a forgotten memory while writing on the sand of the desert sea. While the soul travels to the limits of the mind to break free from the solitude confinement. Every sense and feeling being crucified with anger and rage while pain slowly sinking a sword inside the heart.

Dreadful isn’t it ?


Watching the scythe the mind reaper slice the last piece a soul didn’t seem to be that painful to feel as much as watching humans going through your soul as you fade. Unseen star keeps warming the cold eyes of a frozen demon to scream for every confession hidden.

My dreams are florescent
My hopes are mute
I’m imagining heaven in a coked up hue
In this kingdom of have or have not
I’m pretending you’re all that I’ve got
But you don’t matter
Don’t matter at all

Peices of Heart: After The Lights/Lyrics Confessions

I guess it reached the grand finale
Looking at the lights before the curtains fall
Though that song of love is still playing
Won’t break down my pride for it


After the lights are down
My tears carves a path through my cheek
Am sure I was happy
But not sure if I liked being lonely


It’s not a song of regret
It’s a song of guilt
Was the butterfly brooch painful to stab on your chest ?


After the lights are down
Tears stopped falling after tasting bitterness of pain
Wasn’t gonna survive the madness of departing
Darkness was easy to sink in


After the lights are down
Story of true love became a legendary myth
Though I memorize it and keep singing it when am alone
Lyrics won’t ever describe the true feelings
Because pride gonna make it easier to forget

Confessions of Soul: Cynical


This is life, a sea with a touch of forest fairies for colors. Might get swarmed with dark demons too deep, or might defy the goddess of sadness with a smile under the reflected sunrays.


Dive one more time … It doesn’t hurt


Neglected sins start to swim into the mind, slowly embracing the memento of grace that still lights with pride. Echoes don’t seem to hold on the warning but then the forbidden fruit is always sweet.


Sink into the pleasure of life … Nothing seem to care


To try to hold something precious yet out of reach frustrate the mind of a human. From the rhythm of teasing makes it more desirable still can’t be hold. Giving up after the struggle might be the best solution, are you ready to give up on all that ?


Does it worth fighting for in this madness ruled world ?




It’s so cynical

Memory「Easy Come, Easy Go」


"Easy Come, Easy Go"

I've always found this saying interesting. In a way if u got something in the easy way, u can easily let go. Personally i've always been spoiled and i got everything i want so easily that i thought everything in life was easy to get but as i grew up my self-spoiled behavior began to fade away when i decided to get things my way the hard way. I may have misjudged my life at times things got harder for me to grasp and returned to my selfish behavior. 

The saying 'Easy Come, Easy Go' is still having an impact in my life that i decided to make it the base of life. Now i know if i get things so easily, i don't need to cry or feel upset when i lose them cuz i know i will in the end. For the times i got sad from losing something, i'll just think of my happiness cuz maybe it wasn't my destiny to obtain it. 
things that make you feel down
while you’re living, they’re always going to be there

in the soft sunlight, cry
it shows me every time
in the wind, smiling

when it’s the season that sunflowers bloom
I’ll go see you, I’ll go see you, ah
I can become kind
can you still see that ocean from your window?
everyone, everyone, are you doing well? ah
…I can’t keep on crying forever

after a period of peace, we reach ordeals again
it gets difficult if we think like that

while the memories are calm, cry
I want to save them like this
the sound of waves, I can hear them

I ran around the sandy beach barefoot
happy, so happy, ah
I hummed a song
are you looking up at the sky of your hometown?
I’d forgotten, I’d forgotten, ah
…I can’t keep on crying forever

if I just keep wanting everything,
it’s a little hard to keep going, la la la la
even I can tell that I can’t go forward

the future I saw back then
was shining more brightly, ah

*repeat*

ah.. thank you, always
la la la…
oh my Sea
Sea -YUI

Humans: Soundless Being

Am a vocal cord got torn …
Am a prisoner of rage …
Am a silent angel of regret …
Am a violet rose between red ones …


Just smile and they’ll be fine again …


Am controlled with my innocent weak smile …
My imagination fills me with happiness …
I have to do what they tell …


Am happy … why am I silent then ?


Can I say something ?
I won’t get punished if I did, right ?


Free me … I can’t hold this silence anymore …